Neglecting my duties. Tch.

So I have some kind of problem with my heart. Whether or not the heart is the culprit or the victim is at this point indeterminate. High blood pressure seems to have something to do with it. Long story short, it's been the bane of my entire life. Constant exhaustion, poor sleep, and fits of fatigue so severe it's impossible to stay awake have punched holes in pretty much any endeavor I've set out to accomplish. No longer.


I went to the ER last night and got checked out by a 30-year cardiology vet, which was an amazing relief after years of being brushed off by nurses. They ran about three times as many tests as they normally do, and in the end I was given a pill to take. It was supposed to lower my blood pressure so my heart could catch its metaphorical breath, repair and rest itself, and finally give me the energy I've been lacking my whole life.


And holy shit did it work. I stayed up last night playing Fatal Frame 4 till around dawn and woke up loopy but otherwise okay. My fault, etc. I hung around and did my thing (nothing impressive) for a while and finally took a nap out of boredom around 2. I woke up around 6 and felt something that 12 hours of my previous sleep tendencies never had: I felt rested. I had energy. I didn't even realize how much until I tried to sit down at my computer and just do my normal sedentary thing. I managed to hold still for about ten minutes before I got up and walked two miles on a whim. And when I got home, I lifted weights for half an hour.

This would usually be the end of me for the rest of the day and possibly tomorrow, but know what? I'm not even winded. I could get up and do it again, and I'm having a hard time restraining myself from doing so long enough to chatter this post out. I'm actually tripping over my fingers while I type because even my typing speed has shot up dramatically. Or it would have if I didn't have to keep erasing typos.

I hope this is what it's going to be like from now on, and not just my body trying to compensate for the lower blood pressure or something. If this is what people are supposed to feel like day-to-day, then I can't imagine an excuse bad enough to fail at anything ever.


I'm going to go fight a bear. Later.